Well Ladies I was writing a post about trust.
I wrote for two days and then deleted it.
Because I didn't trust that the words I had written were good enough,eloquent enough or if I was truly meant to post what I received.
Apparently I was,cause daily I am consumed with these thoughts of Trust and also the words. "Express them Maureen,Trust me"
"So Let's start at the very Beginning a very good place to start" When you read you begin with ABC when you sing you begin with Do Re Me" (Sound of Music)
The Sound of Music... Gods words are the sound of music and yet sometimes we don't trust to humm them out loud like other tunes we enjoy.
Why is that?
Could it be what if others think I'm ( add your own thought)
What if I am wrong?
Oh heres a good one Fear!
So lets see
What if + Fear = Lack of Trust could this be the equasion of our lives that we just aren't comfortable with and so we justify?
I know I trust Him,but why?
Is it because it says so right here in the bible.
Is it because our Pastors told us that's what God wants.
Is it because I have felt His presence?
All are true and so I trust.
However there are moments,like my first writing of this post.
Are we able to trust 24/7?
For some Yes and I say Amen to you.
However I am here to to be really honest. I don't always. My lack of Trust may only last but a breath or a blink of an eye but even for that split second there I lack.
Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death.I will fear no evil for thou art with me.Thy rod and staff comfort me.
Why is this spoken only at funerals?
Are we not walking through the valley of death now?
Do we not need His rod and staff to comfort us NOW?
Isn't it Imparitive that we Trust Him in this messed up world?
How many times have we trusted our friends and they have let us down?
How many times have we betrayed a trust? Ouch
How many of you are thinking right now. Uh Oh! she is questioning, and not trusting That these words I write are words from God to pass on to you?
It's ok if for a moment you have thought that. We are Human. I am not disputing this in anyway.
Hey I must admit I am a tad fearful that what if my friends here are offended by this posting,or better yet, am I doing justice with His words to pass along.
Is it I who am lacking the trust in you my friends or my Fathers request to write?
There it is again What if + Fear = Lack of trust.
However the one thing I have learned is that I am to be Obedient, but that doesn't mean there isn't a moment of lack of trust because of What Ifs and Fear.
Trusting can be such a hard thing even when we think we have it down pat.
Ya No! this is something we cannot Master completely.
Why because we are not God,although at weak moments we can come across as if we are. You know when we talk about God and others don't trust your words and we become frustrated and appear "Holier than Thou"
Been accused of that many a time and truth be told their accusations have been true.
So How can we trust completely? Head matching Heart Trust.
How do we connect the two and then trust that we have?
Yes ladies I said it.
We Can't completely.
The good news is He knows this and as long as we are aware of this fact He extends His grace and mercy on us.
"Tell them Maureen, The more Grace and Mercy that I share with you and you share with others.Then you will fully understand My love and Trust in My children.
1 a: allegiance to duty or a person : loyalty b (1): fidelity to one's promises (2): sincerity of intentions2 a (1): belief and trust in and loyalty to God (2): belief in the traditional doctrines of a religion b (1): firm belief in something for which there is no proof (2): complete trust3: something that is believed especially with strong conviction; especially : a system of religious beliefs
1 a: assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something b: one in which confidence is placed2 a: dependence on something future or contingent : hope b: reliance on future payment for property (as merchandise) delivered : credit
Father today and always will I Trust that this is what you wanted me to write and that my obedience to you is my first step in learning what Trusting you completely with my heart and mind is.Until the two match completely I thank You for Your Mercy and Grace. I Thank You for deeming me worthy of Your Love and Trust.